I've archived all of my previous posts, because it just didnt seem right to me. Plus, I've changed into a totally different person. I am no longer as enthusiastic as before, no longer as friendly and as happy. Keeping those old posts only made me suffocate, embarassed and can't accept the fact that I am no longer me.
Growing up sucks. I've lost my own definition of happiness. 4 years back, I defined happiness in many aspects- my family, friends, oppas, kpop, dramas, studies, food, seeing crush,- but now, it gradually lessens, to only- my family, friends (sometimes), good grades, food- and I'm still hesitating, whether the happiness that I've felt, is a real, genuine happiness? Are those the real happiness that I've been looking for my whole life?
